okkkayyy,
so i wrote this really awesome thing about love at school the other day and it was like 2 pages long and i was like WOW have to put this on my blog. and then i went and lost it. darrrrn. anyhow bilbys party was awesome :) very fun. i realllllly enjoyed meeting his friends, ohhh and i found out that a guy i thought was a girl for some unknown reason is infact a guy..... hahaha.

anyyywayy my sister woke me up at around 6:30 this morning and said she was getting ready for work. i accepted this because i mean,, i am loud and crash things around when she is asleep and im getting ready. but the thing is........... she doesnt have work till 10 today. i blewww off at her then...and stole her headphones when she wasnt watching, cause i broke mine :)

haha
welll bella is at margret river this weekend. misssing her. we were supposed to be going to the cityyyy today stupid bitch :P haha hmmmmm i hAVvve the worst cramps :(. ohhh and rumor going around school is that i slept with this guy that is in my year..i was like "since when do i date guys who are my own age?" and people accepted that oddly enough hahaha.

my mum was supposed to be comming back from scotland on tuesday, now shes not comming back till next week sometime. oddly enough i dont really miss her. does that make me a shit person ?

i honestly dont know what to do with my life anymore. i am sickkk of everythiing, bullet for my vallentine screaming through my headphones isnt even working anymore :( geeeeeeeeeeeesh i am strange.
neil called me fat :( starting to believe its true...i mean who else has a bum the size of freaking jupiter ? hahaha anywayyyyyyyy nathan still isnt talking to me...hmmmph haha im finding it more of a game now than anything else. aaron is being funny, he amuses me, hahaha i am going to buy him zoo and leave it on his bed next time im round at his.

hmmmmm trying to get some self respect back....not working very well.
i seem to be failing at everything. its unfair. i cleaned my room. haha i am happy its getting cold again:) i love the winter :) my tummmy is rumbling haha geeeeeeeeeeesh im fat :(

im thinking of redecorating my room. i dont like pink, so why would i have a pink room? grrrrrrrr must persuade my father to paint...or i could just randomly invite cool people over to paint mmy roooom with me hahah anyone interested?

i dont like people whoo say one thing and meen another, it is starting to really irritate me. hmmph,my mum yells at me cause she says i am depressed. i enjoy being depressed. it makes life more interesting. i can be a happy emo kid:)

do you guys remember the mask i was telling you about ? welll goddamit its still there :
:( i am sick of trying to be the person that people want me to be. its unfair. why must we compare each other ? i just want to be me. not someone who shys away.


ahhh well, i should go shower:)
cheerio
rayyyyniiie