Monday, March 30, 2009
NEWSFLASH...fainting hurts when you hit your head on the floor
i fainted in the doctors.....i would prefer to have a bum the size of VENUS instead of JUPITER:)hahaha 'tears dont fall' is my fav. :) haha my fav by slipknot is 'Duality':)hahaha gooood bands:Dyou are fine dont you worry :)hahahaha its me i am worried bout, grrrrrrrrrr i suck.byebyeRaynnnnne
Sunday, March 29, 2009
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im illl................i feellike i have swallowed 76687898088765432456789087654324567898765435678654376545675 razor blades :(
noboddy has blogged recently except myself.that is kinda depressing since i am normally the one who forgets to blog, and the first few times i remember nowadays, nobody else hass blogged either. im gonna go eat custurd and watch a movie :)
rayne drops are falling on my head.
rayynnnieee
xxx
noboddy has blogged recently except myself.that is kinda depressing since i am normally the one who forgets to blog, and the first few times i remember nowadays, nobody else hass blogged either. im gonna go eat custurd and watch a movie :)
rayne drops are falling on my head.
rayynnnieee
xxx
31 odd sayings by Raynnnnie
Body:
a list of oddd strange words that have been formed by rayyynne
1)you are cordilly invited to the zoo
2)you are Applejuicly invited to the zoo
3)my bum cant compete with your chin
4)waitt what ? we are in perth city ? isnt this freo?
5)fine just sit on my legs with your head on your elbow(i believe i was drunk for that one....)
6)im gonna hit you and your gonna be like "what just hit me?"and im gonna be like "my hand you cow"
7)S: why are you going backards ?B: cause you told me to go deeper you fool.
8)is it bigger or smaller than a dvd case ?(LOL)
9)juuuuusttt spank it goddammmit
10)does anyone else have something strawberry in their wallet ?
11)who doesnt enjoy it PAYNEFULL:)
12)stop cameron payning
13)ok fine i went everywhere by having a slave carry me?:P
14)dadddddddd....soo what if i get 1280 candles sent from canada for his birthday cakes...
15)and the front of your car was like on fire..
16)omggg is that his dad? wow he is sooooo hot man...
17)17cm huh 18)if we are drunk and we do stuff i will be like....shit i did stuff with robbie.......
19)hahah i much prefer the one that doesnt burn your mouth
20)im trying to set up the new dvd player...and the booklet thingy isnt speaking becca
21)and then it fell off in my hand
22)ohhh i didnt know you had an older brother...:D
23)ohhh god i know him,....
24)congrats, i fail at everything
:) ohhh truuuue, except at screwing your brother:)
25)haha im the kind of person you think would appriciate a pat on the head bahahaha26)apart from getting scraps from the table of course :)
27)its not hard to just tan and not fry at the same time :)
28)my friend put tanning oil in my hair yesterday :@
29)well,...it was being put on my leg....and it got in my eye
30)or i will just have to come over there, bite you, and make you imortal
31)lemmme out of the goddamn closet,, hes gone now!
hahah many more to come in the goddamn near future :):Dohh and by the wayyyy i was not sober in anyway during the times when these words were put together :)
cheerio
Raynnie
a list of oddd strange words that have been formed by rayyynne
1)you are cordilly invited to the zoo
2)you are Applejuicly invited to the zoo
3)my bum cant compete with your chin
4)waitt what ? we are in perth city ? isnt this freo?
5)fine just sit on my legs with your head on your elbow(i believe i was drunk for that one....)
6)im gonna hit you and your gonna be like "what just hit me?"and im gonna be like "my hand you cow"
7)S: why are you going backards ?B: cause you told me to go deeper you fool.
8)is it bigger or smaller than a dvd case ?(LOL)
9)juuuuusttt spank it goddammmit
10)does anyone else have something strawberry in their wallet ?
11)who doesnt enjoy it PAYNEFULL:)
12)stop cameron payning
13)ok fine i went everywhere by having a slave carry me?:P
14)dadddddddd....soo what if i get 1280 candles sent from canada for his birthday cakes...
15)and the front of your car was like on fire..
16)omggg is that his dad? wow he is sooooo hot man...
17)17cm huh 18)if we are drunk and we do stuff i will be like....shit i did stuff with robbie.......
19)hahah i much prefer the one that doesnt burn your mouth
20)im trying to set up the new dvd player...and the booklet thingy isnt speaking becca
21)and then it fell off in my hand
22)ohhh i didnt know you had an older brother...:D
23)ohhh god i know him,....
24)congrats, i fail at everything
:) ohhh truuuue, except at screwing your brother:)
25)haha im the kind of person you think would appriciate a pat on the head bahahaha26)apart from getting scraps from the table of course :)
27)its not hard to just tan and not fry at the same time :)
28)my friend put tanning oil in my hair yesterday :@
29)well,...it was being put on my leg....and it got in my eye
30)or i will just have to come over there, bite you, and make you imortal
31)lemmme out of the goddamn closet,, hes gone now!
hahah many more to come in the goddamn near future :):Dohh and by the wayyyy i was not sober in anyway during the times when these words were put together :)
cheerio
Raynnie
Saturday, March 28, 2009
okkkayyy,
so i wrote this really awesome thing about love at school the other day and it was like 2 pages long and i was like WOW have to put this on my blog. and then i went and lost it. darrrrn. anyhow bilbys party was awesome :) very fun. i realllllly enjoyed meeting his friends, ohhh and i found out that a guy i thought was a girl for some unknown reason is infact a guy..... hahaha.
anyyywayy my sister woke me up at around 6:30 this morning and said she was getting ready for work. i accepted this because i mean,, i am loud and crash things around when she is asleep and im getting ready. but the thing is........... she doesnt have work till 10 today. i blewww off at her then...and stole her headphones when she wasnt watching, cause i broke mine :)
haha
welll bella is at margret river this weekend. misssing her. we were supposed to be going to the cityyyy today stupid bitch :P haha hmmmmm i hAVvve the worst cramps :(. ohhh and rumor going around school is that i slept with this guy that is in my year..i was like "since when do i date guys who are my own age?" and people accepted that oddly enough hahaha.
my mum was supposed to be comming back from scotland on tuesday, now shes not comming back till next week sometime. oddly enough i dont really miss her. does that make me a shit person ?
i honestly dont know what to do with my life anymore. i am sickkk of everythiing, bullet for my vallentine screaming through my headphones isnt even working anymore :( geeeeeeeeeeeesh i am strange.
neil called me fat :( starting to believe its true...i mean who else has a bum the size of freaking jupiter ? hahaha anywayyyyyyyy nathan still isnt talking to me...hmmmph haha im finding it more of a game now than anything else. aaron is being funny, he amuses me, hahaha i am going to buy him zoo and leave it on his bed next time im round at his.
hmmmmm trying to get some self respect back....not working very well.
i seem to be failing at everything. its unfair. i cleaned my room. haha i am happy its getting cold again:) i love the winter :) my tummmy is rumbling haha geeeeeeeeeeesh im fat :(
im thinking of redecorating my room. i dont like pink, so why would i have a pink room? grrrrrrrr must persuade my father to paint...or i could just randomly invite cool people over to paint mmy roooom with me hahah anyone interested?
i dont like people whoo say one thing and meen another, it is starting to really irritate me. hmmph,my mum yells at me cause she says i am depressed. i enjoy being depressed. it makes life more interesting. i can be a happy emo kid:)
do you guys remember the mask i was telling you about ? welll goddamit its still there :
:( i am sick of trying to be the person that people want me to be. its unfair. why must we compare each other ? i just want to be me. not someone who shys away.
ahhh well, i should go shower:)
cheerio
rayyyyniiie
so i wrote this really awesome thing about love at school the other day and it was like 2 pages long and i was like WOW have to put this on my blog. and then i went and lost it. darrrrn. anyhow bilbys party was awesome :) very fun. i realllllly enjoyed meeting his friends, ohhh and i found out that a guy i thought was a girl for some unknown reason is infact a guy..... hahaha.
anyyywayy my sister woke me up at around 6:30 this morning and said she was getting ready for work. i accepted this because i mean,, i am loud and crash things around when she is asleep and im getting ready. but the thing is........... she doesnt have work till 10 today. i blewww off at her then...and stole her headphones when she wasnt watching, cause i broke mine :)
haha
welll bella is at margret river this weekend. misssing her. we were supposed to be going to the cityyyy today stupid bitch :P haha hmmmmm i hAVvve the worst cramps :(. ohhh and rumor going around school is that i slept with this guy that is in my year..i was like "since when do i date guys who are my own age?" and people accepted that oddly enough hahaha.
my mum was supposed to be comming back from scotland on tuesday, now shes not comming back till next week sometime. oddly enough i dont really miss her. does that make me a shit person ?
i honestly dont know what to do with my life anymore. i am sickkk of everythiing, bullet for my vallentine screaming through my headphones isnt even working anymore :( geeeeeeeeeeeesh i am strange.
neil called me fat :( starting to believe its true...i mean who else has a bum the size of freaking jupiter ? hahaha anywayyyyyyyy nathan still isnt talking to me...hmmmph haha im finding it more of a game now than anything else. aaron is being funny, he amuses me, hahaha i am going to buy him zoo and leave it on his bed next time im round at his.
hmmmmm trying to get some self respect back....not working very well.
i seem to be failing at everything. its unfair. i cleaned my room. haha i am happy its getting cold again:) i love the winter :) my tummmy is rumbling haha geeeeeeeeeeesh im fat :(
im thinking of redecorating my room. i dont like pink, so why would i have a pink room? grrrrrrrr must persuade my father to paint...or i could just randomly invite cool people over to paint mmy roooom with me hahah anyone interested?
i dont like people whoo say one thing and meen another, it is starting to really irritate me. hmmph,my mum yells at me cause she says i am depressed. i enjoy being depressed. it makes life more interesting. i can be a happy emo kid:)
do you guys remember the mask i was telling you about ? welll goddamit its still there :
:( i am sick of trying to be the person that people want me to be. its unfair. why must we compare each other ? i just want to be me. not someone who shys away.
ahhh well, i should go shower:)
cheerio
rayyyyniiie
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
When did I start letting my mothers opionions effect me? I don’t remember giving her the power to make me cry and hurt. Did it happen over time ? how can somebody who is supposed to make you feel beautiful, safe and loved make you want to be away from them and dread being in the same place as them.
How come I have retreated to my room and made it my safe place? Why do I feel safest when I am on my own? Why do I let her effect me? Whenever my mother decides that I am not being perfect, she decides to criticize me, she knows how it effects me and that is why she does it. But why does she have to be so mean? What does it meen when a daughter looks forward to the time period inbetween getting home from school and her mother coming home. Why should I dread her coming home?
It isn’t right that a mother should be able to make her daughter cry after saying a few choice words that she knows will hurt her. Mothers are supposed to be warm and caring. Mine constantly calls me a bitch, nasty, idiotic, uncaring, spoilt and ungrateful. I am sick of feeling this way. I don’t want to push my mother away. But it is the only way I can sort things. Every time I think things are going to be okay between her and me, she turns around and ruins the moment by saying something like “you know you can be such a bitch sometimes”.
That is why I sometimes cry and come to school looking dead. Its hard to be happy, when your told your not worthy of anything or anyone.
How would you like it if your mother told you that you were going to end up alone and she wonders why you have friends at all ?
How come I have retreated to my room and made it my safe place? Why do I feel safest when I am on my own? Why do I let her effect me? Whenever my mother decides that I am not being perfect, she decides to criticize me, she knows how it effects me and that is why she does it. But why does she have to be so mean? What does it meen when a daughter looks forward to the time period inbetween getting home from school and her mother coming home. Why should I dread her coming home?
It isn’t right that a mother should be able to make her daughter cry after saying a few choice words that she knows will hurt her. Mothers are supposed to be warm and caring. Mine constantly calls me a bitch, nasty, idiotic, uncaring, spoilt and ungrateful. I am sick of feeling this way. I don’t want to push my mother away. But it is the only way I can sort things. Every time I think things are going to be okay between her and me, she turns around and ruins the moment by saying something like “you know you can be such a bitch sometimes”.
That is why I sometimes cry and come to school looking dead. Its hard to be happy, when your told your not worthy of anything or anyone.
How would you like it if your mother told you that you were going to end up alone and she wonders why you have friends at all ?
when will i be able to feel as though she is my mummy not my mother?
It hurts.
Rayne
xxxxxxxxx
Thursday, March 5, 2009
cammmmping:D
hahahahah have i mentioned bella and i's plans for the comming hollidays and weekends ?
hahah well we arre going to be camping in her back yard and sneaking out to make rainbows and as such (:A.K.A getting off our faces :P
hahaha and sneaking into the city :)
i love her
sunshine
+ Rayne
rainbow
<3
raynie
i broke up with neil......we are just friends now and i think that is a good thing. i have kinda messed everything up in my life. bella is happy, and i know that should make me happy, but it just makes life that little bit harder than it already is. she is so lovey dovey with this bryce guy.she isnt realy the bella i knew. she blows me off,and doesnt listen.it hurts. i know she doesnt do it on purpose but it still hurts.
i went camping with my family and aarons, he came,and yeah, things werre strange, he was a bit of a tosser. i am sorta hoping that all of the playing around is behind us and we can move on. cause i am a bitty sick of it all.
i am sick of all guys right now.but i think im alright on my own. a little break, where i can be as free as i want. i dont want to have to worry about any guys anymore. so i am on a break from guys(:
i have so much to tell you guys. but it is all so new and fresh that i am scared if i write it down it will become official.
my mother is going back to scotland for a month to help my grandmother and grandfather. i love them both so much,and have a realy special relationship with my grandfather, but we fear he is dying, and it is causing so much pain for me. i dont know what to do.
nowadays i sit in school and hope that nobody see's through this mask i put on. i am not ready for things to become real. i am stuck between two girls, Rayne and Raynie. who am i ? its so hard.
im stugling with school.friends.love.and life. i dont know what to do.
Raynie
i went camping with my family and aarons, he came,and yeah, things werre strange, he was a bit of a tosser. i am sorta hoping that all of the playing around is behind us and we can move on. cause i am a bitty sick of it all.
i am sick of all guys right now.but i think im alright on my own. a little break, where i can be as free as i want. i dont want to have to worry about any guys anymore. so i am on a break from guys(:
i have so much to tell you guys. but it is all so new and fresh that i am scared if i write it down it will become official.
my mother is going back to scotland for a month to help my grandmother and grandfather. i love them both so much,and have a realy special relationship with my grandfather, but we fear he is dying, and it is causing so much pain for me. i dont know what to do.
nowadays i sit in school and hope that nobody see's through this mask i put on. i am not ready for things to become real. i am stuck between two girls, Rayne and Raynie. who am i ? its so hard.
im stugling with school.friends.love.and life. i dont know what to do.
Raynie
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