amor

cuándo usted puede forever vivo, usted vive para? also know in English as : when you can live forvever, what do you live for ? I think i have found the answer. We live to love and be loved. After some thinking i have decided that i could not live without love. everybody has love in their life even if its just tiny things like: how coffee smells, the first person you see in the morning, or even reading the first page of a novel. I know people who think they will never be loved, but they just don't realise how much they mean to people around them. I love my form teacher for goodness sake !!! I love tiny things about my life. People don't realise it but the things they do affect everybody around them. One of my best friends Bella doesn't realise that every time she shares a smile with me across chapel it makes me feel loved and wanted at least for the time being. My other friend bilby doesnt realise that every time he greets me on msn, that i get a warm feeling inside. people have sanctuaries,mine is my bedroom. it doesn't sound special does it ??? but when i am having a awful day at school all that keeps me from breaking down and crying is knowing that when i get home i can go into that room and nothing and no one can bother me. nobody is there to call me names,or point out my flaws. it is just a simple place. when me and my self can be alone. People don't always understand why i read so much. but the truth is that i read to escape. top escape the world i live in, the escape the argument going on between my sister and my mum in the other room, and to escape the people laughing about me across the science room. When i read, i am not myself, i am Bella or Jacob or Ellie fighting the battles of evil. It sounds stupid but its the truth. i get jealous and needy and insecure and i cant do anything about it. i hate it. I cant say life is bad. but its not great either. I am not dying of starvation in Africa or fighting in a murderous war. my life is good, i am spoilt compared to these people. but why do i feel so incomplete ??i have friends that make me feel welcome and are always there for me. so why should i complain ?? i have no right. love and be loved friends, cause that is all we can do.
the question: cuándo usted puede forever vivo, usted vive para?
the answer :amor
cheerio
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