herro,
i had a very nice conversation with surf last night. it ended with both of us admiting that we were turned on. I am very tiered and I'm waiting on Bella,Andy(my ex) and Rhys(who likes Bella :P how sweet). i am not looking forward to this. well actually i am, but i just am sick of Andy hitting on me since i really don't like him !!!(pretty obvious since i am basically taking my pants of every time i talk to surf:P). they should be here soon. we might watch saw 3. urg my parents are still home so im gonna force them into the garden. Bella was supposed to be here 5 minutes ago so that i wasnt left alone with rhys (near gag)or even worse ANDY(DOUBLE GAG !) :( my dad is killing our plants with a chainsaw. our bushes that are supposed to be 3 ft tall, they are now 1 ft tall. that man is dangerous and ott with garden utensils. I had surf life saving this morning, it wass tough training. im watching Gilmore girls with my mother in the living room.someones here . wish me luck.
cheerio
rayne
il fill you in with the details after :)
ahh andys here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and im alone iwth him

this was suposed to be posted awhile ago

im eating lunch. its vair messy. i had a very intresting conversation with surf last night, it ended with both of us admiting that we were turned on. have i mentioned that surf is 3 years older than me ??and exteemly hot ! hehe.

amor

cuándo usted puede forever vivo, usted vive para? also know in English as : when you can live forvever, what do you live for ? I think i have found the answer. We live to love and be loved. After some thinking i have decided that i could not live without love. everybody has love in their life even if its just tiny things like: how coffee smells, the first person you see in the morning, or even reading the first page of a novel. I know people who think they will never be loved, but they just don't realise how much they mean to people around them. I love my form teacher for goodness sake !!! I love tiny things about my life. People don't realise it but the things they do affect everybody around them. One of my best friends Bella doesn't realise that every time she shares a smile with me across chapel it makes me feel loved and wanted at least for the time being. My other friend bilby doesnt realise that every time he greets me on msn, that i get a warm feeling inside. people have sanctuaries,mine is my bedroom. it doesn't sound special does it ??? but when i am having a awful day at school all that keeps me from breaking down and crying is knowing that when i get home i can go into that room and nothing and no one can bother me. nobody is there to call me names,or point out my flaws. it is just a simple place. when me and my self can be alone. People don't always understand why i read so much. but the truth is that i read to escape. top escape the world i live in, the escape the argument going on between my sister and my mum in the other room, and to escape the people laughing about me across the science room. When i read, i am not myself, i am Bella or Jacob or Ellie fighting the battles of evil. It sounds stupid but its the truth. i get jealous and needy and insecure and i cant do anything about it. i hate it. I cant say life is bad. but its not great either. I am not dying of starvation in Africa or fighting in a murderous war. my life is good, i am spoilt compared to these people. but why do i feel so incomplete ??i have friends that make me feel welcome and are always there for me. so why should i complain ?? i have no right. love and be loved friends, cause that is all we can do.
the question: cuándo usted puede forever vivo, usted vive para?
the answer :amor
cheerio
xx

yuppp...thats me

okay,so today i went shopping with my ex boyfriend...(who happened to mention he is still in love with me a few days ago...). he carried my stuff all around the shops. now i feel bad. i think i may have led him on....BUT I LIKE **** !!!!ITS SOOO UNFAIR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry my computers stuffing up so i have to go.
cheerio
xx

the facts of life

Death. it is part of the cycle of life. but the fact that people we love wont always be with us is one of the hardest things a person has to deal with. life is short, as the saying goes. if i left this word tomorow what would be left of me ? what would people say if my name was mentioned? the world caries on each day even when we are not here. but it makes us stop and think" am i the person i want people to remember me as ?? even people we dont know effect us when they die. for instanse my sisters friend died of heart failir on the tennis court at school in malaysia, i didnt know him, but i still cried for hours after i found out. it is so hard to grasp that somebody you saw not that long ago, laughing and breathing is now no longer in this world. how can we cope ?? we will never again have a conversation with that person or share a sneakie smile. its the truth. it kills.

TWILIGHT

i love twilight. i read the whole series in 1 week(2 day break because i couldnt find the last one). it is the best.. i want a edward....i want to be a freaking vampire(upside : they are suposedly beautiful).. i have downloaded everything i can find about it. i have watched all the trailors and am just sitting here twiddiling my thumbs till the movie comes out....on the day i get my braces !! life is soooo unfair !!so we(bella and i ) are going to book seats for the 13th instad:)anyhow just thought id mention how good the series is....
cheerio
rayne
xxxxxxxxx

at school

okay, just did my english play thingababobby and it was .....shit.
"skinny" aand "short" (A.K.A the kiss arse twins) had a bloody anoyingly long play that we had to endure. awww bella thinks i blew her off !!! i just read it on her blog !!! ohh she has to understand this!! okay the explination :
ummm "scott"(WHO IS A MAJOR HOTTIE !! i have been in love with him for like a year !! he has these really brown eyes that a sooo gooodd to stare into, and he is soooo smart....sorry im getting off the point) okay so our computer crashed and it wouldnt work so scots dad who happens to be a computer expert or something offered to fix it. so i went to collect it with my dad just so that i could get out of the house and away from my mother.
anddd this suposed brilliant mate of mine ??? HE IS A ARSE !! I IGNORED HIM FOR THE WHOLE 30 MINUTES I WAS THERE !!hahaha and btw bella just to let you know. mitch is a definate hottie but REMEMBER he is a tool(and a bad one, one that can even screw something or hammer anything...didnt meen for that to sound pornographic.)
anyway the gorgy italian stalion is hot. gtg bell just went
cheerio .
im off to maths to fall asleep on my ex boyfriend
xxx

something about nothing

hello,
baaaaaa i tiered sorry, talk later :)
cheerio
I'm off to eat malteasers

hello :)

herro,
so i am using my dads laptop of the umpteenth time this week since "ryan" is fixing the computer. wish his son would break me hehe. soo im talking to bella. the convo :
I say:
haha you never blog
bella says:
wat r u on about>
bella says:
?
I say:
u never blog lol u have only done it twice
say:
!
I say:
iv done it 8 times
bella says:
wel u hav had longer plus mine are vair long
I say:
hahaha
I say:
lol u ramble on about nothing
I say:
im proud
I say:
i have taught you well
Bella says:
i know
I say:
soooo what are you doing ??
bella says:
blogging
I say:
haha awesome teacher huh ?
I say:
rawr cool
I say:
so am i
Bella says:
wat r u up 2 then?
bella says:
thoguht u were goin to tea 2nite
bella says:
??
I say:
this has to be the most boring convo in history
I say:
yup
I say:
but mums on the phone to ma uncle hehe.
END OF CONVO.
seee ???? we are vair vair boring people. i have nearly finished a book i got yesterday for gods sake ! how can i have a real life if i spend so much time in a book ??? haha well im tiered and im gonna try get my mum off the phone, because i am starting to die of hunger......
cheerio
rayne

DONT TRUST GIRLS :P

herro ,
watching gilmore girls again. hehe today was good , untill i found out that every freaking girl and guy in a certain group enjoys bitching about me ALOT
!!! lol but who cares ?? im exhausted. my thumb hurts from typing. dads on the excersize bike hehe.i had custurd when i got home and it tasted goooooooooooooooooooood.i have nothing to write about. nothing much intresting happened. well i might blogg later
cheerio
rayne

should it be legal to behead teachers ?

hiya,
Today was ..crap. Teachers suck, hence the subject name :) I'm so tiered. so i suppose you are wondering what I'm talking about teachers for ?? well "MR ARSE" my history and social studies teacher is a ARSE hence to code name :) okay so me and Bella had a history assignment due yesterday on "gladiators in ancient Rome ". but Bella was ill for like the whole week last week and we only had a week and a day to do it in. we only had 2 periods to do it in.and i was ill yesterday, so we went to see him this morning to see if he could give us more time because we only had time to do a speech exc . and he flat out said "NO". grrrr he's a arse. Okay now we are done with MR ARSE and we are onto MRS ARSE (who FYI isn't married or related to MR ARSE, they are just both ARSES). MRS ARSE sucks to be honest. she told me i was a disappointment to my teachers and the school, just because i texted a friend yesterday when i was off school and his phone went off in class. Here's a rough outline of the convo we had when she dragged (not litraly) me out of french, much to my disappointment of missing a moment of this enthusiastic class**sarcasm used **.
MRS ARSE: where were you yesterday ??
**i was like what the heck?? why do you want to know your sikopath**
MOI: i was at home, in bed ill.
MRS ARSE: did you text someone, such as ****** ********
MOI : **ohhhh S*&t !!** umm yea, but i didnt know he his phone in his pocket......*starts backing away from the pedo getting closer to her by the minute*
MRS ARSE: you are a disappointment **by this time i had drowned out :P**.....blah blah blah
MOI: sorry..**proceeds to cry in the English block toilets**
do you guys get why i hate her sooo much ??
which leaves me wondering should it be legal for teachers to be beheaded ??
anyway the rest of the day went pretty fast. i caught the bus home and this RLLY hot guy was talking to me :PCame home, went on computer, watched 'gilmore girls' , READ (Alot haha ) have i mentioned i read ALOT ??? ahh well im tiered as i have already mentioned. parents and sister are yelling. urgg mums ranting to dad about her now haha. im going to bed soon (actualy going to read :P)
hope i havent bored you few followers to death :) also i detest people who judge others.**hint hint bilby :)**
cheerio
ohh yes and i also realy reconmend the book "ravens gate" to ppls out there :P

hollidays

okay now i regret saying that......shes alright realy. 'bella's' creating a blog haha. I'm talking to pic and he wants me to go on web cam. what is up with guys and wanting me to go on webcam !>???? loll haha i have flashed waaayyy to many people. hey just wondering ..who wants to be a goth ??bahahaha :PIm suposed to be ill .......i need a laptop so i can blog when i need to. Not just when im allowed on the computer. im tiered so i should go off the computer agian....and also it wont look to good if my mum walks in from work and im on the computer when im suposed to be in bed sick... URG school tomorow :( **weeps** cant wait till the hollidays!!! hahaha all the free time i want ! mum is only off on wednesday so can do WHATEVER,WHENEVER !!! except of course i still have to babysit...but i have to get money somehow huh ? and $20 a week is just not going to work for me. haha partysss non stop, this summer is going to rock :) ohhh and i get to patrol 1!!! yay !!! well cheerio x

sisters suck.

my sister sucks. she is a bully. she uses things against me and tell my parents EVERYTHING. urg just cause i dont always do what she says. i will probebly regret saying this later but right now i truely believe in what i say. haha talk about emotionaly unstable.
cherioo.
p.s is a hoover a weapon ??

my new diary

okay, so i have writen a intro to this blog. i am going to carry on as if i have been writting a blog for as long as i could read...and write...and used a computer.but okay here it goes.
I am 'ill' and off school. i just couldnt be bothered today ! i had sunstroke on saturday since i was helping out hughes at the sorrento primary fair.I made $20 and got aload of books including "men are from mars, women are from venus" hoping that maybe it will give me some insight about the minds of guys. anyway i feel a tad strange right now because there are three guys i am atracted to. now DONT JUDGE !! i am a teenage girl and im blaming it on hormones. anyway "surf" is a guy from school who has a awesome body and a gr8 personality,"pic" is a guy who is REALY good looking and i know him through a close friend, but i dont know him that well.and finally there is "camp" who is cute,smart and makes me blush ever time we talk...even though that isnt often. im watching gilmore girls haha wish i had a jess alll to myself. Okay i officialy have the horn.(and for you idiots out there, having the horn doesnt meen im horney !!) i've spent to much time on the computer so im going too go read or something...haha
cherioooo

MY NEW BLOG.

haha finaly the terrorist has a blog !! haha now all those wierd and perverted innocent victims can get inside my head as i have been in theirs. i have read bools that are from a bloggers point of view and i quite enjoyed them, but maybe that was just beacause it involved vampires and falling in love and......sexual tension haha. also i have read some blogs that my friends ( including a extra kinky one :P) write and they make me laugh. though i can asure you that these blogs wont be funny and if at any point they become remotley funny it has happened by accident since i am a person who laughs alot but isnt very funny if you get me .life is very tiring right now and since no one is going to read this blog i shal use it to record my last weeks of 2008.But just incase a person reads this and adds 2 and 2 togther i will use code names. so basicly this is my blog.
soo cheriooooo