for him :)

sometimes when you tell me you love me, i dont say it back. which is silly. and im sorry, cause its stupid, and so far from the truth. so i am writting this for all the "i love you"'s that i have not said.

I love you more than i love the warmth of a hot cup of tea in my hands on a cold winter night. I love you more than i could ever write or say. Being in your arms makes me feel so safe and loved. I love you sooo much.I love cuddling into you when i get to cold. I love the way that just looking at your face makes me want to kiss you. i love the fact that you dont care about the little things and you love me for being me. i love your individuality. i love the way you are tattooed into my brain and are all i ever think about. i love the way you are the only thing i want to think about. i love your arms and how secure i feel walking hand in hand with you. i love the way when you laugh i get the butterflies. i love how you like the same music as me.

i love that i can ask to go to the zoo, and we go the next weekend. i love how you share my love of energy drinks. i love how i was yours from the first time you said hello. i love how we spent 9 hours talking the second time on msn, and never ran out of things to say. i love how you are always warm and i am always cold.

I love how when we kiss, we are in our own little world. i love how i cant stay mad at you. i love how big your hands are. i love how my body melts into yours when we cuddle and kiss. i love how you make me feel alive. i love how you make me feel. i love how seeing your face makes me smile. i love how hearing your voice makes me feel warm. i love that your mine and im yours.

and i love how much i love you.

xo

Sorry, This is how you do it.

There's many degrees of seriousness when saying sorry. 1 being the most sincere 5 being the least.

1- So sorry

2- Sorry

3- Soz

4- Sozzles

And finally...

5- Sozzle-copter

Do not do as Rayne did and say this to your angry mother.

fuck off twilight:)

sooo...wolf slept over last night...she is beside me now...we thought we would share our experience....have fun...


*wolf arives at door*
*Rayne opens door*


*Jackson(her dog) goes crazy...*

Wolf-"remeber when my sister tongue kissed jackson?"

Rayne-"yeah, she has gone further with my dog than her boyfriend"

*go to Raynes room and talk on her bed whiolst texting tttsnb*

Rayne-"lets go to the deli and get stuff to eat"

Wolf-"LETS MAKE RAYNEDROP MOCKTAILS!!!!!"

Rayne-"er...MOCKtails?"

Wolf-"fine have it your way"

Rayne-"thats what she said!"

Both-"tehehehehehehhe"

*go to deli and buy chocolate chips, 2L of lemonade and assorted sweets*
*walk out the deli and two guys walk by*
Rayne- "put your tongue back in!"

Wolf-"i was looking at his shoes!"
*rayne conspicusly dives round the corner to look at boys shoes....realising after that the boys are looking at her*
*Both spend 5 minutes laughing over the shoes*
*walk back to raynes to find her parents going ti the spa. her mum walks by in a swimsuit. we both blanch.*

R- may aswell make the drinks.
W- yer

RAYNEDROP MOCK\COCKTAILS
apple juice
absulut raspberri vodka
apple and grapefruit mineral water
lemonade
ribena
gummi sweets

Mix all in a large pitcher and drinkkk icyyy cold :D


*get changed into bikinis whilst drink is chilling in the fridge*
*parents leave spa*
*both get in*

R- i just got frostbite
w- ...i've never had that before.

*rayne stares at her*
w-have you?
R- do i have all my limbs wolf?
w-err yeh?
R-there is your answer.....


*proceed to drink raynedrop MOCK\COCKtails.*
*3 glasses later*

W- i have never been drunk before
R-you just feel happy and laid back
W-unless im an angry drunk
*rayne backs away*
W-SHUT UP!
R- chill, lets all share and feel the love here
W-what were you, born in the freaking 70's?
R-nooo, i was born the same year as you silly!

*drunken rambelings*
w-remember when i stole your bikini shirt and threw it on the wall where you couldnt reach it and you had to jump for it armed with a broom handle?
R-yeh and then that guy walked by...and i was like "SHIT" and ran off.

*start feeling floppy and limp*
R-how long have we been here for?
W-idk.
R- finish your glass! im 2 drinks ahead!
W-i dont want to get hungover...
*rayne gives her a VERY quizacale look.*
W-haha fine
R-PEER PRESSURE!
w- lets hope no one ever offers us drugs.....
R-errr yes....:D

*finds caramel buds in drinks*
W- why is there bread in our drinks?
R-.....oh wait those were the caramel buds we were experimenting with earlier....

*gets out and watch hot fuzz*

Rayne and Wolf
xoxoxo

Second blog off the day... Yeh i'm bored.

I'm sitting in my form room now ummm, I'm bored. Didn't see that coming did you?
Wolf: Hey Sparks...
Sparks:hey, oh crap you made me lose at pacman
Wolf:Well my space invader died

welcome to private schooling

HELLL AND SEX :D...now i have all peoples attention i wouldnt like to say a few things
1) the kid beside me is singing if your happy and you know it
2) he just told some guy called jono that he will see him this weekend?
3) the year tens are amusising
4)im tired
5) i wrote a love letter for the kid beside me to his ex.
6) he is in year 7 :P
7)the bell g=just went..
Rayne
xo

My Life as is

Okay I know I haven't been able to blog for ages but i've been busy and just plain lazy.

Anyway this week I have been anoyed and starved to an inch of my life. My Sister being the main course of annoyance. And my mother being the main course of Starvation. She is on this new saving money thing that means that we only shop once a fortnight. The saving money part is working out great except now we have nothing edible in the whole house, Genius idea Mum. As for my sister? Now my mother is angry at me cause apparently I ate all the noodles in the house. F.Y.I I only ate one, my sister ate two of them as well as two muffins. Leading to the fact that I also got angry at her and called her a fat heffalump (Yeh, I was particuarly harsh and creative with my insults this week). And there is no fruit or vegetables in the house this week either so i'm all set for the scurvy to get me... Fun.

Am typing this in the library computer lab with the weird kid writing love letters over his web mail and sing if you're happy and you know it clap your hands. And I say "If you're fucked up and you know it clap your hands" Yeh...

what now?

death. you can't escape it. its impossible. you see it coming, you know its coming for a fact. but when it happens..well it still feels like a bullet to your heart. you feel like you can't breath. how could this person not be here still? since when has that suprior bastard whoever the hell he is, that lives up there, think he has the right to take some one from us? who the hell gave him or her the option to take a persons life? its fucking unfair that i have to sit through lesson after lesson of christian studdies listening to how the fucking world is controled by some guy who made us and somehow has the right to take us away at any moment. i remember when i was younger my priest told me a story when my goldfish died. it was about how god really just wanted to meet my goldfish himself, and cause he was in heaven they would finally meet. well you know what god? FUCK OFF AWAY FROM ALL OF MY FRIENDS.if my preist was right, then why couldnt god just wait? wait, just for us to complete our life cylce. its not right for someone to try so fucking hard to stay strong and alive when your ultimate goal is to stop them from reaching their 18th birthday. might suprise you to know i used to be a really strong christian. i didnt understand when my sister told me when she was ten that she didnt believe in god. i think the first time i ever questioned christianity was when i was ten myself, and my tortoise died. we had took him to the vets. we were supposed to give him injections every 4 hours for the rest of the day. and after his second injection, when he was finally acting a bit better,he died in my hands.has anyone here ever felt anything die before.? i could actually feel this tinny creatures life force leave him. he curled away in his shell. and that was the first time i actually experienced death. since then it seems to have taken a liking to me. since it keeps on coming my way. its unfair. unjust. unbelievable. and i dont know how to cope with it any more. do you just carry on? like i have? if thats the right thing to do, then why do i feel guilty that im going to make it to my 21st birthday and they arent? people shouldnt make promises they cant keep. i just pray to whoever the hell he or she is up there, that they never take any of you guys away.

Rayne
xo