okAY :D haha my sister is starting a blog....yeahh she is fallowing mine, so check hers out :) victoria copland,....ahuuhh :P
love you all
cheerio
Raynie
xxx
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
urgggg
im all spottyyy ;(. i hate beng spotty.annd my hair is all bad. im getting it dyed on tuesday..so it should be okay thenn,...but god! my face is like zit city...:( i am going to put on a face pack......oiii TTTSNB remember how i bumped my nose and was like OUCH?well now i have a spot there :(
cheerio
Rayne(:
cheerio
Rayne(:
Thursday, April 16, 2009
what is the point of a title when it nearly never has anything to do with what the blog is about?
i have no reason to blog haha other than the fact that i have nothing else too do.
today i went to the braces doctor (you know who i am talking about...im just to retarted to know how to spell the orthadonnt...somthinganother...) and it was tediously boring.
and that is basicly it....
im getting my hair cut and coloured on tuesday. im going dark again hahaha. not my choice. my mother says that the blonde is starting to look tedioous...
well 'andy' had sex....ahuh...seems we are all breeding like rabbits nowadays huh...?
im reading briget jones's diary. hillarious stuff. any girl that needs a laugh and insperation needs to read that book. it is epic. as well as the movies hahaha now those are lolfull :P
my room is a mess, yet again. hmmmm uhuhh whats that you say ? monkkeyyy brains? ohh yeahs i know all about them...all squishyyy....
well i just read a blog about what somebody else tastes like (sam-ham...im pretty sure)
but it made me think....what would i taste like :
is it weird to like the taste of blood?.....probably.......
whyy am i even blogging...? this is a useless waste of time.
ohh i just thought of a topic.
guys.
they are so fucking confusing.(btw i dont know where this is comming from :S)
all they ever do is send fucked up signalls.
just be straight with us goddammmit!
urg hahaha
:)
cheerio
rayne :)
xx
today i went to the braces doctor (you know who i am talking about...im just to retarted to know how to spell the orthadonnt...somthinganother...) and it was tediously boring.
and that is basicly it....
im getting my hair cut and coloured on tuesday. im going dark again hahaha. not my choice. my mother says that the blonde is starting to look tedioous...
well 'andy' had sex....ahuh...seems we are all breeding like rabbits nowadays huh...?
im reading briget jones's diary. hillarious stuff. any girl that needs a laugh and insperation needs to read that book. it is epic. as well as the movies hahaha now those are lolfull :P
my room is a mess, yet again. hmmmm uhuhh whats that you say ? monkkeyyy brains? ohh yeahs i know all about them...all squishyyy....
well i just read a blog about what somebody else tastes like (sam-ham...im pretty sure)
but it made me think....what would i taste like :
is it weird to like the taste of blood?.....probably.......
whyy am i even blogging...? this is a useless waste of time.
ohh i just thought of a topic.
guys.
they are so fucking confusing.(btw i dont know where this is comming from :S)
all they ever do is send fucked up signalls.
just be straight with us goddammmit!
urg hahaha
:)
cheerio
rayne :)
xx
Monday, April 13, 2009
woahhh ahaha stupid convos with aaron chapman bring this out in a girl...:P
hello there,
its 1 :23 in the morning and im kinda confused.
im not too sure about what exactly,all i know is that it is stopping me from sleeping. i have been readin through old posts by mainly bella, and readin the comments made on them. so far i have read that bilby thinks my life is a drama movie.
im not sure how to take that. does that mean he thinks im over dramatic ? or an actress ? or that i always want to be in the spotlight?
i also read bella saying that she has learned to depend on me too much. Bella hun. i will always be here. you CAN always depend on me no matter what. i love you so much. being away from you actually hurts me. when my life is hanging by an edge, and all i can think about is a hot bath and cold razor blades. you are the only thing that stops me from making those fantasies become real life. if anything i depend on you too much. i depend on you to keep me alive.
i make so many mistakes in life. i dont learn from them all but i try my best. i read bella saying that we arennt so inoccent any more. im not sure when i became who i am now. i remember being the little 11 year old tomboy who was only interested in soccer and playing outdoors.the only girl the boys would allow to play soccer with them at recess and lunch. the girl who would only wear sports strips and would watch action movie nonstop. the girl who watched the disney channel and never gave a damn about what anyone was thinking about her. or who was watching. the one that didnt care about popularity or how skinny she was.
its hard to look back on those times and then see who i have became. because when i reaslise who i now am. it makes me ashamed. i am shallow. 2 years ago if i had met the person i have became, i would have been disgusted. i dont regret some of the choices i have made. but some i look back on and think "this isnt you.". how do you know when too much is too much ? how do you know when you have finnaly crossed that line? when do you know when to stop, when you cant tell right from wrong? how can you choose an opinion when you dont even know what you believe in ?
i dont like being held back. especially because of my age. i knew this one guy. we were sooo close. we talked all the time and realy cared bout one and another. the only problem was, after awhile his mates gave him a hard time about my age. he cracked under the strain.and hasent talked to me since, if your going to comit to being somebodys friend, you should not care about what anyone else thinks. if you really care about this person, does age matter? god knows i am a hell of allot maturer than most people my age, for christ sake, im more mature than people 3 years older than me! i am maturer in body, mind and experience. most of the time i enjoy this fact. sometimes it has its drawbacks.
in two years time, looking back , will i be proud of the choices i make? how do you accept the person you are, when you dont know what you have become? i am the party girl, the one that drinks, hooks up with guys and has a pretty big rep to live up too.
i have finnally found someone to keep me sane.but how long will it last ? my grades are slipping, my family cant stand me, iv made stupid mistakes and done stupid things with stupid people. when will i have enough strength to stop myself? cause sometimes nowadays, i can feel myself at the edge of the cliff, toes curled along the rough and slippery edge, barely keeping a grip,about to fall, with no one to grab me and pull me back to saftey, or to catch me when i fall.
how can someone, who has soo many people in their life, feel so alone half the time? i love my friends, they make life pleasent. but sometimes i wonder if it is where i belong. there are some places i just suddenly feel safe in, and i feel as though i will be accepted, no act needed(bilbys party was one of these rare occurances).
i may seem unsteady,uncaring,hurtfull and obnoxious. but honestly deep down, im just a 14 year old girl trying to find a place in a world where she cant belong.
so maybe my life is a drama. but can someone please answer me this, am i the goodie, or the baddie? is my ending sad or happy? and most of all, when does this movie end?
haha woah that was a depressing blog : hahaha anyway, that has been cooped up iim nside me for long enough. it is time to move on haha :) i dont know whats happening.
but i get the feeling that things we be good again soon :)
sorry bout my massive moan, i realise that basicly everybody else's blogs are never so depressing...hahah that probably makes mine a drone to read hahaha :) soorrrry
from now on i shall only post happy blogs.
i am over trying to impress people. now it is me.Rayne.:)
WELCOME TO LOSERVILE :D
Rayne
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its 1 :23 in the morning and im kinda confused.
im not too sure about what exactly,all i know is that it is stopping me from sleeping. i have been readin through old posts by mainly bella, and readin the comments made on them. so far i have read that bilby thinks my life is a drama movie.
im not sure how to take that. does that mean he thinks im over dramatic ? or an actress ? or that i always want to be in the spotlight?
i also read bella saying that she has learned to depend on me too much. Bella hun. i will always be here. you CAN always depend on me no matter what. i love you so much. being away from you actually hurts me. when my life is hanging by an edge, and all i can think about is a hot bath and cold razor blades. you are the only thing that stops me from making those fantasies become real life. if anything i depend on you too much. i depend on you to keep me alive.
i make so many mistakes in life. i dont learn from them all but i try my best. i read bella saying that we arennt so inoccent any more. im not sure when i became who i am now. i remember being the little 11 year old tomboy who was only interested in soccer and playing outdoors.the only girl the boys would allow to play soccer with them at recess and lunch. the girl who would only wear sports strips and would watch action movie nonstop. the girl who watched the disney channel and never gave a damn about what anyone was thinking about her. or who was watching. the one that didnt care about popularity or how skinny she was.
its hard to look back on those times and then see who i have became. because when i reaslise who i now am. it makes me ashamed. i am shallow. 2 years ago if i had met the person i have became, i would have been disgusted. i dont regret some of the choices i have made. but some i look back on and think "this isnt you.". how do you know when too much is too much ? how do you know when you have finnaly crossed that line? when do you know when to stop, when you cant tell right from wrong? how can you choose an opinion when you dont even know what you believe in ?
i dont like being held back. especially because of my age. i knew this one guy. we were sooo close. we talked all the time and realy cared bout one and another. the only problem was, after awhile his mates gave him a hard time about my age. he cracked under the strain.and hasent talked to me since, if your going to comit to being somebodys friend, you should not care about what anyone else thinks. if you really care about this person, does age matter? god knows i am a hell of allot maturer than most people my age, for christ sake, im more mature than people 3 years older than me! i am maturer in body, mind and experience. most of the time i enjoy this fact. sometimes it has its drawbacks.
in two years time, looking back , will i be proud of the choices i make? how do you accept the person you are, when you dont know what you have become? i am the party girl, the one that drinks, hooks up with guys and has a pretty big rep to live up too.
i have finnally found someone to keep me sane.but how long will it last ? my grades are slipping, my family cant stand me, iv made stupid mistakes and done stupid things with stupid people. when will i have enough strength to stop myself? cause sometimes nowadays, i can feel myself at the edge of the cliff, toes curled along the rough and slippery edge, barely keeping a grip,about to fall, with no one to grab me and pull me back to saftey, or to catch me when i fall.
how can someone, who has soo many people in their life, feel so alone half the time? i love my friends, they make life pleasent. but sometimes i wonder if it is where i belong. there are some places i just suddenly feel safe in, and i feel as though i will be accepted, no act needed(bilbys party was one of these rare occurances).
i may seem unsteady,uncaring,hurtfull and obnoxious. but honestly deep down, im just a 14 year old girl trying to find a place in a world where she cant belong.
so maybe my life is a drama. but can someone please answer me this, am i the goodie, or the baddie? is my ending sad or happy? and most of all, when does this movie end?
haha woah that was a depressing blog : hahaha anyway, that has been cooped up iim nside me for long enough. it is time to move on haha :) i dont know whats happening.
but i get the feeling that things we be good again soon :)
sorry bout my massive moan, i realise that basicly everybody else's blogs are never so depressing...hahah that probably makes mine a drone to read hahaha :) soorrrry
from now on i shall only post happy blogs.
i am over trying to impress people. now it is me.Rayne.:)
WELCOME TO LOSERVILE :D
Rayne
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