neil is a sloppy kisser.....ahuh.....yeap.....**nods head** he is a bad kisser! why does something like this screw things up ? grrrr im so shallow.......grrr any advice?its my birthday tomorow..im not very excited....
cheerio
raynie

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have i mentioned neil ? i beleive i have,.........but anyhow i am dating himm......yes....hmmmm....or so i believe...:)
love you all
Raynie
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geeesh

i fall for the wrong guys. the ones that just want in my pants and have no respect for me.they dont actualy care, but i manage to persuade myself that they do. i protray myself as a sluty person and so that is how guys treat me.it basicly sucks and meens that i am tearing myself apart most weeks due to one of the numerous OLDER guys that i like. they hide me. and dont give a damn about how i feel.its stupid. i fell inlove with aaron when i was.....11 years old. and from then on he was been a object to entertain my imagination.finnaly quite a few years on, he showed interest in me, but it was only sexual and the first time we fooled around he was still with his girlfriend for gods sake...and then came nathan, aarons best mate....he was all over me like a rash when i first met him.and then as soon as he saw me at a party infront of his mates,he completely ignored me,then when he saw me with andy at the shops, he was desperate to know who andy was and if i was dating him. thennn finaly he asked me out BUT He thought we shouldnt tell people. and when i went to the city with himm,he got a text from a group of his mates asking him to meet them for awhile,and instead of taking me with him he said to me "can i meet you here in ten minutes ?"and i was like...."okay.."and became very angry,though i couldnt yell at him when he got back cause guess what ? he brought two of his guy mates (who were fuuuucking hot)to spend the rest of the day with us.
and between them both came camp.you all know thhe story. he broke my heart, and i think i still love him even though the guy couldnt give a damn if i lived or died.
im so stupid.
i compare myself to everyone.and i cant accept myself for who i am.
im sick and tiered.
and my life is a pile of dirt
love you all
rayyyniiie
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bahaha i ment PRIVATE not PUBLIC...
ROFL
<3

ohhh and brooke ?
remember mr 17+cm :P well aaron is 19 cm :P and i hve a ***ahhuumm***maybe we should carry this conversation on in public......
:D
LMAO
rayyynie
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sorry it has been awhile:)

okay so in key points and in no order here are the things that have happend so far since i havent blogged.
>i had a online affair with aaron
>i got asked out by nathan
>camp and his girlfriend broke up
>i caught up with bellaboo:)
>went to the beach alot
>hungg out with andy at the marina
>hung out with luke :)
>became realy good mates with lukes ex
>started having pretty insighting conversations with my sisters ex about guys etc
>got ticketts to pink
>redecorated my corkboard
>snuck into the city with nath
>ended spending half the day with his other mates blake and mark
>had a good time
>nath has started confusing the crap outa me
>started spending wayy to much time on my laptop
>forgot to blog
>got school supplys
>read an awesome book called "burned" which i reconment to everybody:)
>cried alot through the book and named it one of my favorite books ever even though it is soo sad
>decided that i am looking forward to school
>got my hair dyed blonde....
>cracked my heels
>babysat and earned $100 in one night
and thats all i can think of atm :)
im happy
cbf with guys
:D
GIRLS RULE ATM :D
love you all
raynnnie:D
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